This is my third day without fizzies
been taking fizzies for 15 years, but only in the last 3 i have became supper addicted, of the 365 days of the year maube i spend a week without fizzies
yesterday i woke up in the middle of the night with all my brain synapsis screaming for codeine. I felt like a dirty junkie, i didnt want to use, i wanted to stop go back to sleep and not feel such an awful anxiety, was rolling in my bed like a tasmanian devil, i wonder how heroine junkies must feel on their cold turkey
we forget codeine is a derivative of same puppy plant, being addicted to codeine aint that far from being addicted to morphine, callin em fizzies can be a way of minimising our addiction
drinking coke zero helps as it has bubbles, sound stupid but it is
i am trying to make something positive of this period of quarantine, i know i dont want to fail this time because then you stop believing in yourself and thats the worst can happen