This is my first time posting, although I have been reading your posts for about a year and have found them very helpful. I have been blown away by your kindness, support and compassion and you have helped me through some dark days and nights.
I started taking Solpadeine for migraine when I was 16. I am now 50. I also took it for hangovers, period pains, etc. but for decades I was not addicted. I took it when needed - which was often - but I could take it or leave it. When I lived abroad, I didn't think twice about Solpadeine and used local painkillers. I even recognised, in my late teens and early 20s, that if I had headaches and migraines and aborted them with Solpadeine, Solpadeine could 'build up' over the course of a week and then a massive migraine would hit, so I used to take breaks from it to stop that happening. I had dense brain fog and frequent head pain over the years but always blamed my caffeine addiction and other factors. I didn't suspect Solpadeine because I wasn't taking it on a daily - or even a weekly - basis, only when needed.
Nine years ago I was badly injured in a car accident. My major injuries were beautifully cared for by emergency medicine but I was left with niggling pains (back, dental and others). I started using paracetamol to cope, then remembered soluble Solpadeine. My doses crept up insidiously. I can't even remember when my addiction started (maybe seven years ago?) but before long, I was taking two, then four, then six a day for every pain - real or a mere twinge. Every time I got up to eight, though, my body would rebel: I would get a migraine, take Solpadeine, the tablets would make my migraine worse, and I would be thrown unceremoniously into cold turkey. And every time I have tried to taper off, say by half a tablet a day, my body has rebelled and and again kicked me into cold turkey. Although miserable, maybe I am lucky that my body says, 'Enough of this shit!' and takes matters into her own hands.
I have just gone through another involuntary cold turkey: a 4-5 day migraine. It is just about over and I feel a lot better. Your posts got me through it this time. I was in a lot of pain. Thinking about the strength of you guys on this board, and the satisfaction of giving the finger to GlaxoSmithKline, helped me through the pain.
I suppose I am scared that I might end up back on Solpadeine eventually, though. After a massive migraine, I get lots of smaller 'aftershock' headaches. Slowly they grind me down, as simple painkillers don't alleviate them. Then I try one or two Solpadeine, promising that it's the last time, and the pain evaporates. The next day, I might have another headache and, with the memory of my last bad migraine in mind, I take more Solpadeine to avoid it, and before I know it, I'm back to square one. I think Determined Dave wrote about something similar in an early post.
I have to be strong this time and not go down that path. I am trying Autogenic Training and avoiding known dietary triggers to prevent migraines (all the foods/drinks I like, of course…!). I think this time I'll be OK, but I've said that before…
I just wanted you to know how incredibly helpful your kindness, support and insights have been, even to a lurker :-)
Many thanks to everyone here.
All the best,